this early morning, i chat with reza. he cool me down by letting my feelings out. i told him from a-z. he's really a good listener, thats why i love him! ( I REALLY DO OKAY!) he was born witha 50% of a woman's heart. thats why he knows how much ive been suffer myself  just for the man i love. reza was our middle man. between naz, that girl and me. at times, i was afraid to let naz stick with reza cos he can get relevant info about her to naz. but i didnt put a blame on him, cos he got no ways to turn. naz is his best buddy. so he have to help him too. but i was really disappointed. i felt unwanted, unappreciated and disrespect. apa lagi dia nak pon aku tak tahu?

maybe a time off will be prefer. but i must think about the consequences too. what if she appear on his life again? dont i feel like a sore loser? dont he see how pure my love towards him? cant he move on like what i did? 

he told me before to give him time to forget about her, i did. but it became worse 9 months plus already, no effort making instead doing a homework on how to get back with her. i was unaware of it till he told me this and that. its been two months ive been hurt by his behavior. 

i dont want him to get bore by what im doing. i dont want do give up hopes for him. maybe it takes time to heal. but when? till when must i be patient? god bless me please.

i need some advice my dear readers.